I would never bash on our relationship. We were young, immature, and crazy. We didn't know how to not flirt with other people or how to apologize to one another. We used to sneak out late at night to sit on a playground and talk about our hopes and dreams. Those are the nights that stick with me even after all these years. You never failed to make me laugh or brighten my day with your free spirit. Our relationship was the first time I felt butterflies and the first time I felt heartbreak.
I'm writing this letter because I want to say thank you. Without you, I wouldn't have become the person that I am. I wouldn't know that I'm beautiful in my own way- something you reminded me of often. You showed me how to embrace my flaws and you always encouraged me to chase my dreams, even if it meant I had to run the opposite direction you were heading. You believed in me before I believed in myself, so thank you. With you, I felt invincible. Everything seemed so easy because of your constant support.
You taught me how I deserved to be treated and how to love someone other than myself. I'm so lucky that you were my first love because you loved me selflessly. Our time together was gone in the blink of an eye, and now I make sure to stop and look around me once in awhile. This is something I wish I had done that day we fed a giraffe at the zoo or the night we spent in the city watching fireworks. There's a saying, "love knows no age," and you make me a believer of it. We were young and innocent and despite hearing that we were "too young for love," we made it work.
I know it's been such a long time. We live in different states and we have different interests. We became adults and we've matured. Our story came and went like the wind, but that's just it. Other guys have came and gone, but you will always stand out. You were the first boy to love me and to break my heart, and I will never forget you.
I can't help but love others as selflessly as you loved me. And I can't help but think that the first love I had with you is the reason why.
A Better Me