I fell for you fast and I fell for you hard. I loved the jokes you told me. I loved how nice you dressed. I loved the way you kissed me goodnight. I liked you more than I like ice cream; which was a lot.
I did everything for you. I planned our dates and paid for your dinners. I spoiled you with gifts and treats on the regular. I sat alone on a train for six hours to meet your family. I only thought of ways to make you happy. I was your cheerleader throughout all of your stressful job interviews and I helped you with your homework because I knew how busy you were. I put you before myself, and that’s a mistake I will never make again.
I still think about you almost every day and I can’t help but wonder if you think about me too. I wonder if you think about what you put my heart through. You made rude comments to me almost every day, even if you thought you were only joking. You pushed me away if I ever got too close to you. You pointed out my flaws to the point where I’m now incredibly self-conscious. I sat in your bed alone while you were out with another girl until 3 a.m. You broke my trust not only you; but in every man who will come after you.
Although all of these things happened, I don’t hate you and I don’t think that I ever will. We had some amazing times and you made me the happiest I have ever been. I still remember the way you took care of me when I was sick, or the times you would drive me across town to run my errands. You would surprise me with chocolate and stuffed animals when I was upset and you would do your best to make me smile. You put up with my snoring, even if you never got any sleep. I still watch the TV show that we started together and I still have all of the gifts you’ve given me.
So thank you. Thank you for making me who I am today. Thank you for teaching me how important self-respect is. Thank you for showing me when it’s time to walk away. Thank you for making me realize that I deserve better. Thank you for the learning experience.
I hope that you realize that you deserve better too. You deserve more than what you let me go for. You deserve someone who will love you the way I did. You let go of a diamond to chase glitter. But that’s okay. Although it’s the end of us, it’s the start of something new.
Like I said, I don’t hate you. I hope that you learned as much from this relationship as I did. And I hope that you treat whoever has your heart next as if she is a queen. You aren’t a bad person; we just weren’t meant to be together. I hope that life leads you to a place better than you could have ever dreamed of. Until then, thank you for all the lessons learned and strength built.